Summer Camp
I'm happy I came here. It was a bit iffy at first and more of choice of what had the best things going for it rather then a place I had always had my heart set on. I've come to love it despite the random drunk people and idiots that really shouldn't be allowed to waste scholarship money. I love to learn and I always have. Sure I hate work and that's always been the case too, but here it's just better. I hate High School. Absolutely hated it. The only thing that got me through was my hardly ever being there, me ignoring all the work that they wanted me to do, dreaming of whatever came after, and the people I cared about. I'm happy I got away from there. The same people for 5 years, the same problems that just wouldn't go away, the suffocating rules that were only put in place for the kids that need constant supervision. I grew up way to fast for that setting and their trying to promote good work ethic and lead us through by a leash came in way too late to make a dent on my already established procrastinating self. I'm also happy that I never took a year off or went to the community college. UCFV is way too much like high school. They have to lead you through and I know I wouldn't be able to take it anymore. Plus everyone I know who has taken a year off for the most part wont be going to school at all. The sad thing is that they've seen how much money they can get by living at home and working full time so right now it's enough, they don't realize that that won't get them through forever, or even for a couple more years. Eventually they will have to move out and their savings (if they save) will be gone in an instant. I really don't know though how they could even take that option. I worked fulltime over the summer at a decent job, but it got so repetitive and I had no excitement in my life. Every day was the same routine, at least here I have the chance for variety. Plus the schooling here is just long enough so that I don't get too ansy about wanting to change. Four months out of the year is perfect for a semester, though sometimes it feels too short. I'll be happy when this semester is done, but I'm going to miss everything. I don't know how I will last four more months away from everyone and everything here. I love the classes I'm taking (well for the most part, and at least more then those I've done before) and things here always seem to interest me.
I've just realized though that rez feels like camp, or at least what I imagine camp would be like, my mom never let me go to camp. Anyway, there is no place like rez. I noticed it right away over Christmas break when I went home. I actually had to go on msn in order to talk to people I could normally just walk down the hall to see. I didn't have anyone other then my brother randomly knock on my door just to chat, though I'm beginning to see that he's the one who got me used to being bothered in the middle of doing something by someone at random times of the day. I still miss Alex just walking in while I'm on the phone and chatting with me, but I get that here from everyone so I have my fix. Plus here I have my other boys. My babies are at home making mom stress out like crazy and here I have the boys I spend time with. Sometimes I miss feminine chatter, but then I just have to listen to Corey and Dustin talk and I'm good for my fix.
This is starting to get me nostalgic. It's almost the time or year when everyone moves out of rez and moves back home, but I might not be going. I might move in with my dad instead (well if he would get off his ass and find a place for the both of us, lazy bum :P). My mom was already talking about packing up my stuff so that Alex could move into my room. My room! *sniff* I've had it forever... and there are so many memories there, I don't know how I would be able to leave it. Then again, thinking about the future is exciting. If I don't come back to rez and I'm not living at home that means that I will have... my own place. I'll be starting my home. Scary thought.
I'm happy I came here. It was a bit iffy at first and more of choice of what had the best things going for it rather then a place I had always had my heart set on. I've come to love it despite the random drunk people and idiots that really shouldn't be allowed to waste scholarship money. I love to learn and I always have. Sure I hate work and that's always been the case too, but here it's just better. I hate High School. Absolutely hated it. The only thing that got me through was my hardly ever being there, me ignoring all the work that they wanted me to do, dreaming of whatever came after, and the people I cared about. I'm happy I got away from there. The same people for 5 years, the same problems that just wouldn't go away, the suffocating rules that were only put in place for the kids that need constant supervision. I grew up way to fast for that setting and their trying to promote good work ethic and lead us through by a leash came in way too late to make a dent on my already established procrastinating self. I'm also happy that I never took a year off or went to the community college. UCFV is way too much like high school. They have to lead you through and I know I wouldn't be able to take it anymore. Plus everyone I know who has taken a year off for the most part wont be going to school at all. The sad thing is that they've seen how much money they can get by living at home and working full time so right now it's enough, they don't realize that that won't get them through forever, or even for a couple more years. Eventually they will have to move out and their savings (if they save) will be gone in an instant. I really don't know though how they could even take that option. I worked fulltime over the summer at a decent job, but it got so repetitive and I had no excitement in my life. Every day was the same routine, at least here I have the chance for variety. Plus the schooling here is just long enough so that I don't get too ansy about wanting to change. Four months out of the year is perfect for a semester, though sometimes it feels too short. I'll be happy when this semester is done, but I'm going to miss everything. I don't know how I will last four more months away from everyone and everything here. I love the classes I'm taking (well for the most part, and at least more then those I've done before) and things here always seem to interest me.
I've just realized though that rez feels like camp, or at least what I imagine camp would be like, my mom never let me go to camp. Anyway, there is no place like rez. I noticed it right away over Christmas break when I went home. I actually had to go on msn in order to talk to people I could normally just walk down the hall to see. I didn't have anyone other then my brother randomly knock on my door just to chat, though I'm beginning to see that he's the one who got me used to being bothered in the middle of doing something by someone at random times of the day. I still miss Alex just walking in while I'm on the phone and chatting with me, but I get that here from everyone so I have my fix. Plus here I have my other boys. My babies are at home making mom stress out like crazy and here I have the boys I spend time with. Sometimes I miss feminine chatter, but then I just have to listen to Corey and Dustin talk and I'm good for my fix.
This is starting to get me nostalgic. It's almost the time or year when everyone moves out of rez and moves back home, but I might not be going. I might move in with my dad instead (well if he would get off his ass and find a place for the both of us, lazy bum :P). My mom was already talking about packing up my stuff so that Alex could move into my room. My room! *sniff* I've had it forever... and there are so many memories there, I don't know how I would be able to leave it. Then again, thinking about the future is exciting. If I don't come back to rez and I'm not living at home that means that I will have... my own place. I'll be starting my home. Scary thought.
