Funfun
So yesterday was my birthday. I had fun. First I went out for lunch with Keren and JF. Then later family came over. I actually stayed up with my mom, uncle and aunt drinking vodka and orange juice. I didn't have much because there is really no point to get drunk with family, at least I don't think so.
My dad finally called late last night. He didn't come yesterday and I hadn't really heard why. My mom said he said I had to say sorry first, so that sort of made me sad since I wasn't going to see my dad on my birthday for some stupid reason. He finally did call and we made up. I'm planning to see him on Sunday maybe for lunch.
Keren and I made up too. She came over Thursday night to watch American Beauty. When she went home she read my blog. I was so surprised by that because last time she did was about 2 years ago. She wrote me a letter and she said she was sorry. I feel bad though because I said that nobody cares anymore about her or her feelings which isn't true. I wouldn't have been so sad if I didn't care and JF wouldn't help her or worry about her if he didn't care. Plus she remembered things I've done for her which ment a lot to me too. She has always done so much for me so I always knew that she cared about me too.

IT'S MY 19TH BIRTHDAY!

More goodbyes
So Keren has decided that I'm not worth the time anymore to be friends with. According to her I've changed, she's changed, I have friends elsewhere, she has friends elsewhere.... mostly crap. She has so many friends that live elsewhere and have other friends. She strives on people like that. She has all her msn friends whom she met through other friends online who live elsewhere. Everyone changes and always will and she knows that too so she can't use that as an excuse. She is just annoyed with everything I do and say and doesn't care anymore.
It hurts really badly though. Oh I've been stupid before and not talked to people for a while and kinda stopped being really good friends with people that way, but it hurts when that happens with someone you cared about. She was one of my best friends for so long and to lose her over something stupid is just well... it hurts. I don't even know why she doesn't find me worth it. She most likely thinks I'm trying to steal JF and has made up reasons to dislike me. She always gets mad and doesn't say anything about it until one day when she is really pissed off and blurts out everything. I've done so much for her and so many times I've ignored her mood swings. She has so many of those and I'm almost the only one who cares how she feels when she has them. JF doesn't care and when he knows that she is mad over a stupid reason he doesn't pick up his phone because she does it so often. *sigh* whatever. It's better that I don't have to worry about offending her or doing something that get her mad at everyone.

*died and went to heaven*
Mmmmm Star Wars was awesome. I came to Calgary to see it with Corey, Dustin and Gavin. Sleep time.

Time
It's odd how much time changes everything. You don't really notice when things are going along because you just deal with what happens and move on, or you don't notice because it's just another day that seems like any other day. As I sit here and think, I realize how many things have changed and I realize how hard things are still going to be when the next school year starts. I already know some of the challenges that are waiting for me and I'm hoping that some turn out better then I am imagining right now, but I just have to wait patiently until I can deal with it all. There are some things that I look back on that I can't change now, but I wish turned out a bit better. *sigh* oh well.

Lalalalalala...
Well Alex has Guild Wars and I've played a bit, but... WoW is still my #1.

Twinkle twinkle little star....WARS!
*squeakles with glee* So a couple good things happening. Well I'm most likely not going to China for work like I was hoping. Still have to see on that. It would be awesome though but my boss just went for a wedding and its his third trip in a month so he's not to keen on going again till September which means I will be in school and can't go. BUT! I am going to Calgary in the middle of May and I'm going to see Star Wars the night that I get there. WOoooooooOOOoooOOOoooooooOOOOOOoooo!
:)