You're so jaded, and I'm the one that jaded you.
Apparently I’m jaded. Towards everything, life, love and well... I guess that’s everything. I think this is ‘confess to Natalie that she is different and seems more depressed weekend’. Some things that were said have been good, like it’s nice to know I’m more independent and stand up for myself more now. Plus I guess having a dry cynical wit isn’t a bad thing; I mean at least that means I am funny sometimes. Though then they say that me being independent comes from the fact that I’m scared and make myself not care about anything so it won’t affect me. I know I do that more now. I somehow have learned not to care about the events that happen. I know I can’t change much so I just don’t care what happens anymore. By someone else I was told that I am in a constant state of indifference. This brings back the thing about me not caring.
Having Louis leave I guess was a big deal, it seems I just dealt with it by shutting myself out from everyone else so that I couldn’t become more damaged then I already was. It doesn’t seem that I was ever fixed in the process though. I don’t see how I could be either. I was in pain and there was nobody around to help me. The easiest thing to do since then has always been to forget. I have always been able to emotionally cut myself off from the world, but now I’m an expert. Being hurt so badly by someone you were in love with just doesn’t really sit well with a person, even if it was unintentional.
I’ve needed someone to help me for the longest time, nobody has been able to and I really don’t see how I can expect them to.
- Dark Lily 0>--}---
Apparently I’m jaded. Towards everything, life, love and well... I guess that’s everything. I think this is ‘confess to Natalie that she is different and seems more depressed weekend’. Some things that were said have been good, like it’s nice to know I’m more independent and stand up for myself more now. Plus I guess having a dry cynical wit isn’t a bad thing; I mean at least that means I am funny sometimes. Though then they say that me being independent comes from the fact that I’m scared and make myself not care about anything so it won’t affect me. I know I do that more now. I somehow have learned not to care about the events that happen. I know I can’t change much so I just don’t care what happens anymore. By someone else I was told that I am in a constant state of indifference. This brings back the thing about me not caring.
Having Louis leave I guess was a big deal, it seems I just dealt with it by shutting myself out from everyone else so that I couldn’t become more damaged then I already was. It doesn’t seem that I was ever fixed in the process though. I don’t see how I could be either. I was in pain and there was nobody around to help me. The easiest thing to do since then has always been to forget. I have always been able to emotionally cut myself off from the world, but now I’m an expert. Being hurt so badly by someone you were in love with just doesn’t really sit well with a person, even if it was unintentional.
I’ve needed someone to help me for the longest time, nobody has been able to and I really don’t see how I can expect them to.
- Dark Lily 0>--}---
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